[ She resists the redirect, shaking her head and tugging on his hand to stay inside. For once, she didn't want more air. She wanted her body to stop feeling so heavy, her chest painfully tight.
She shakes her head again, her expression growing pinched as she tries hard not to give away any more than she already has. Her voice is quiet, small in a way. ]
[Cassian hesitates, watching her reactions, confusion at the forefront followed by concern. It's impossible to guess what has caused this reaction, but he relents, following her to the bedroom despite his discomfort at not having a read on her or information available to help him understand the situation he's dipping into.
Reluctantly, he takes a seat on the edge of her bed when she lays down, watching her in silence and waiting for an explanation to come.]
[ After what happened and the things said, she's not likely to divulge it anytime soon. To anyone. Even to someone as close to her as Cassian. She lays down on her back at first and then rolls over to her side, looking at him but not for long. She's seen a version of that look before. Though it's less cold than last time she saw it.
A lot has happened since then.
She reaches out a hand for him to take. She swallows hard. Almost feels like swallowing pride. ]
Can you just... hold me? Let me hold you... I can't explain it.
[ It's a terrible thing to admit for someone that spent so much time trying to be alone. Convincing herself she was better suited that way. Or it feels terrible. But Cassian knows her better than most by now. It's less terrible saying it to him. ]
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She shakes her head again, her expression growing pinched as she tries hard not to give away any more than she already has. Her voice is quiet, small in a way. ]
I just want to lay down. Please.
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Reluctantly, he takes a seat on the edge of her bed when she lays down, watching her in silence and waiting for an explanation to come.]
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A lot has happened since then.
She reaches out a hand for him to take. She swallows hard. Almost feels like swallowing pride. ]
Can you just... hold me? Let me hold you... I can't explain it.
[ It's a terrible thing to admit for someone that spent so much time trying to be alone. Convincing herself she was better suited that way. Or it feels terrible. But Cassian knows her better than most by now. It's less terrible saying it to him. ]